I am not a positive person. It surprises some, I guess some people feel that
I look like the type to have a rose colored view, but I'm not. My positivity
tends to run the range of "I am positive that something is going to end up
screwed up!" I'm told that's pessimistic, I feel it's realistic, and that
mindset is a factor in how things play out. As in the old saying, if you think
you can't, you're right.
I think my negativity, as some see it, has paid off some. I am a mother that keeps a full diaper bag. You'll find Benadryl and kids' Tylenol in it, because sometimes you need it. If you are out w me and need a feminine hygiene product, come find me and I'll hook you up because I always keep some in my purse. (Even when pregnant I had some in my purse, just because you never know. And I've had people ask. I've had strangers ask. Once I got a nice tip because I was working as a server and one of my customers found herself in sudden need of one and I was able to help her out.) I keep pet cleaner in my van (it has enzymes that work on any bodily fluid, so it is great I someone gets car sick!) There are also blankets, a first aid kit, snacks, and water bottles in the van. It is all set for a natural disaster. I could give Boy Scouts lessons on being prepared.
I kind of sound like those prepper people, but I'm an everyday prepper. I don't need to prep for some disaster like solar flares or a nuclear war. I've got to be prepped for the day to day stuff: someone having an allergic reaction while we're out, kids falling asleep in the car, kids coming down with a stomach virus, or me having dairy (I'm lactose intolerant). You know, the everyday stuff that doesn't happen every day but could happen at any time.
I have no intention of abandoning my cautious ways, but I'm thinking that I need to be more positive. This is a real challenge for me. Not that I don't think good things can happen, I consider my motto "Prepare for the worst and hope for the best", but I am challenged buying into the positive hype. When I read about or hear people talking about positive thinking I bristle. Hearing "if you think you can, you can; if you think you can't, you're right" or whatever it is, I pretty much hear "come on, drink the Kool-Aid". It's like positivity is a cult, and their drinks might be tasty but I'm just not sure about it. (Makes sense, being sure about anything really does go against my nature.) Still, they might as well be chanting "Join us in just expecting everything to work out", and you know they are chanting this in that brainwashed monotone. I do at least think "good for them" for being so positive, even if I'm also thinking "jump off a building expecting to fly because you believe you can and see how that works for you." I admit it, I am a dark person. I should have been Goth. I guess I'm a Goth in disguise.
I think my negativity, as some see it, has paid off some. I am a mother that keeps a full diaper bag. You'll find Benadryl and kids' Tylenol in it, because sometimes you need it. If you are out w me and need a feminine hygiene product, come find me and I'll hook you up because I always keep some in my purse. (Even when pregnant I had some in my purse, just because you never know. And I've had people ask. I've had strangers ask. Once I got a nice tip because I was working as a server and one of my customers found herself in sudden need of one and I was able to help her out.) I keep pet cleaner in my van (it has enzymes that work on any bodily fluid, so it is great I someone gets car sick!) There are also blankets, a first aid kit, snacks, and water bottles in the van. It is all set for a natural disaster. I could give Boy Scouts lessons on being prepared.
I kind of sound like those prepper people, but I'm an everyday prepper. I don't need to prep for some disaster like solar flares or a nuclear war. I've got to be prepped for the day to day stuff: someone having an allergic reaction while we're out, kids falling asleep in the car, kids coming down with a stomach virus, or me having dairy (I'm lactose intolerant). You know, the everyday stuff that doesn't happen every day but could happen at any time.
I have no intention of abandoning my cautious ways, but I'm thinking that I need to be more positive. This is a real challenge for me. Not that I don't think good things can happen, I consider my motto "Prepare for the worst and hope for the best", but I am challenged buying into the positive hype. When I read about or hear people talking about positive thinking I bristle. Hearing "if you think you can, you can; if you think you can't, you're right" or whatever it is, I pretty much hear "come on, drink the Kool-Aid". It's like positivity is a cult, and their drinks might be tasty but I'm just not sure about it. (Makes sense, being sure about anything really does go against my nature.) Still, they might as well be chanting "Join us in just expecting everything to work out", and you know they are chanting this in that brainwashed monotone. I do at least think "good for them" for being so positive, even if I'm also thinking "jump off a building expecting to fly because you believe you can and see how that works for you." I admit it, I am a dark person. I should have been Goth. I guess I'm a Goth in disguise.
